Breaking Down Walls

JP with Omni and Lorem

It seemed to Voah that her feelings were as plain as the nose on her face. Perhaps not. Whether through training or just her own personality, she held up a facade and she had also been pushing him away. Whether it was her own intent or a byproduct of her performance as Arbiter, she could no longer tell.

She preferred not to speak ill to Gonyaul and thus chose to not speak at all if her mood was ill, but his prompt to speak her mind softened Voah's mood.

"What more can I say that has not already been said? I feel like... a burden... like you view me as... some sort of trouble seeker... and I am fully aware of how..." She shrugged, "befitting that assessment is... and I know that is not the type of person you want as a lover and companion. I know you want peace... but conflict is everywhere and it has long been my purview. Now you and I are at odds... Our minds and methods not aligned... I question if they will ever be." She sighed, "We have spoken on these matters so I will spare you the repetition."

Gonyaul sat patiently as Voah expressed herself. He measured each word alongside her tone, expressions and body language. She was not wrong; but, he wonder if she took a few thoughts too far in an unhealthy direction for her own sense of self and their relationship.

He took his time to collect his thoughts. This was a serious matter and she raised tough points.

“What more that can be said that has not been said today is … “ he paused which had a dramatic effect. “I love you.” He gave her time to let his truthful words sink in before continuing.

“We are not the same, true. This I think is a very good thing. This mean we no always see things same or have same plan of action. It may be at times we are at odds.”

He smiled, “But conflict does not mean I will stop loving you. It mean we need both learn to better communicate and understand so we can navigate conflict so as to help one another. We do this well, we will come out with better plans and stronger relationship.”

He thought about what he just said as if to evaluate if he agreed with it all. Did he say it correctly?

“Sometimes you way may be best. Sometimes my way be best. Sometimes compromise be best. Sometimes entirely new plan be best. Together we figure out, yes? Together both learn and grow.”

Was he doing a good job of explaining himself? He rightfully wasn’t quite sure. “No more you way versus my way. I want to make OUR way.”