Hard to Move On

JP with Omni and Lorem:

Voah took it all in. This sounded like some bedtime tale, beautiful and saccharine.

She wanted that for Gonyual, prayed for it, of course deep down she hoped that it would be her... wanted it enough to make it so… but It ended in devastation for him and Tiponi. She needed to sit down.

Voah hadn’t flat out rejected him… but she supposed leaving him was akin to the same thing. How long were you supposed to wait?

“I didn’t… I couldn’t… I was so…” she could find nothing but excuses.

“It took me 10 years…” she shook her head. “You will learn, Hoi willing, that I have a hard time moving on…”

There was no anger, only inadequacy.

Gonyaul believed he must have said something to upset her by that question.

He didn’t understand why someone would pine and spin for ten years for something when they could still actively pursue what they were looking for. In other words, make your move and observe. If they respond move forward. If they reject, then you must move on. Time was too precious to let sit idle is what he had been taught.

But what would a Vaux know of such relationship matters. They have prearranged marriages.

He decided to say none of that. Instead he knelt beside her and placed a hand on her back trying to comfort her.

“Maybe, when you move I move with you so not hard?”

“I’m sorry… please don’t misunderstand. My heart was shattered many years ago... and you helped it heal and grow back. But the broken pieces remain where they lay. You have already moved me, my darling. When I met you, I held onto every grudge and you have helped shape me into someone better. Most of what you said about… Tiponi… is how I have come to think of you, and how I want you to think of me.

Years ago, I would have been angry but this just saddens my heart, even though I prayed for it, that you have so easily found someone else who is already perfect, and of course I want that to be me.

But you have been taken from her... it seems unjust…

Moving on is like forgiveness… and that has always been hard for me. How can you forgive so easily?”