Memories

I remember things in the wrong order. I guess 3,000,000 years and a crash into a planet that frags technology hasn’t done my disk any good. Every now and then it’s like my world is turned upside down again as a little fragment of my life drifts back into place. After I died, and they booted this disk first time, it was corrupted. Then the corruption began to resolve and… And that’s when it all goes blank again. I don’t know what happened. Maybe they turned me off during an attack to use the ship mounted guns. Maybe they realised I’d never be the same person. Maybe they hated me all along. They must have decided not to switch me back on.

The fire raged quickly through the science block. Fear gripping her, Keto was still inside. He’d burn to death and she would be the one who caused it. Who leave a Bunsen burner on the corner of the bench above the dirty lab coat pile? The heat was unbearable, the smoke choking. She stumbled through the hallway calling for him. Then the smoke was too much, cloying at her airways and she collapsed.

“You alright Tara?” Jay looks concerned. It must be showing on my face.

“I…. It’s just that…” Maybe it was time to ask what was happening. Maybe one of them can fix my memories, fix this disk?

“Jay. Can I have a word?” I watch in amazement at the audacity of Cass as she pushes off the opposite wall and floated in front of me. Time to put on the mask again, smile, focus on it reaching your eyes. Don’t let them in. Don’t let them know. They are all traitors, especially…

“No. Don’t worry. It’s nothing.” I say. Bottle it all up, keep it locked away. I glide away, gently bouncing off the ceiling as it twists with no stabilizers to keep us steady.

It was her first day. She was nervous about being there at all. She’d never served on a space ship before. The crew seemed welcoming enough, if a little over friendly. That was the day she met Him. He was a hologram, or so he claimed. When He came in howling with a fork stuck in His hand. Even from then she knew He was the one.

Do you miss me? Did you miss me? Why did you never some for me in the time fridge? Why did you let me stay dead? Between the two of you, I thought one of you at least would have thought of that idea. I mean, if I can, why didn’t you? Did you ever love me at all? The Doctor is looking at me strangely. Like she can see through me what’s going on. How could she know me? We only met maybe once, before….

She was busy, dismissed the newcomer to the team almost instantly, waving her towards Xaviers office. He’d said if she didn’t get it all tidy then he’d not put her forward for the exams. She’d always wanted to be a Doctor. She looked up, Wildflower was sat in the corner with headphones in, the Tree shedding frustratingly onto the clean floor. She scowled at them, then caught herself looking like Keto and stopped. The newcomer had already entered Keto’s office, now she felt guilty for not introducing herself first.

“I guess you don’t like Chris Rea?” I looked up. The Doctor had moved over, I listened and true enough over the radio was Chris Rea, She Don’t Need Diamonds… or something like that if I remember correctly. I smirked.

“He’s alright I guess, just not on an endless loop. Jade wasn’t it?” I’m pretty sure that was her name. I could be wrong, so many new faces.

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OOC – Onion can you save us? Or are we doomed to listen to Radio Free Bruno on loop until we run out of air? Does anyone else have a backup plan to get us back to the dwarf? Or did we bank too much on being rescued?